Are we desperate?

It is very easy to be desperate when you feel helpless. I once felt that way because I was involved in an accident that changed the course of my life, completely. I used to feel so sure of myself, emotionally, physically and  economically, when all of a sudden that structure collapsed, “head on” in a car wreck, with the loss of my husband, my health and the desire to go on by myself. I used to cry desperate when I saw myself thrown on a bed, not being able to walk or do a thing to quench any need on my own. I was so insecure that I demanded God for the rest of my soul. I felt useless even to guide my daughters in life and thought they would be better off with anyone else than with me. And everything I smartly planned to get ahead turned into more losses despite the help I got due to my condition; I cried, and cursed my situation everyday.  “I can’t make it”. . .”I’m not capable to do it”. . . “I am a failure”. . .”What’s going to become of me?”. . . “People will laugh at my girls because of me” It was all about me, me, I, I, my, mine. Why did it have to happen to the one (me) who tried to always be a good person.

Accidents are not the result of a bad behavior. If they are perhaps the consequence of someone’s carelessness, the ones who were not at fault should not pay for them, but if God allows them to his “little ones” it will surely serve to their goodness, and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him. (Romans 8:28a).  I, myself realized how many friends I had when the entire church stood to pray for me and passed the message to anyone who cared to do it too when it reached God. I also started to pray NOT for my will, but for His, and to grant me patience to wait on Him, and the wisdom to understand why He let that happen to me. He did comfort me and gave me the wisdom I asked through my prayers and the reading of his word which resulted in my thanking Him today for all He has restored me with, which is more than I would have asked for. He does not disappoint us if we ask humbly and with faith which means: being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. (Hebrews 11:1)

According to the dictionary to be desperate is having lost all hope. Though, I tell you, that if we ask God, and make a habit of it, obtaining wisdom through his Word, He will reward us with HOPE due to the Glory of God in Jesus. And as Paul, the apostle, said: We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.  (II Corinthians 4:8-9)

Whatever the reason for our despair we should declare it unacceptable and ask God according to his purpose, as John said: This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us —whatever we ask—we know we have what we asked of him.

 (I John 5:114-15)