Life also makes us
frown if things do not go as we plan. It’s happened to me, and many times I
walked around in a long face for more than I wished, even though I was always pleading
I could smile again. There were many people praying for me and many who loved
me were always giving me good advice from the book of wisdom:(the Word of God).
Sometimes that was not good at all, because it made me feel ungrateful; like I
was not doing what I was supposed to feel good; and I did not know what was
so unpleasing to God of what I was doing. I felt horrible about myself and
thought He did not like me, which was the reason why I felt so bitter and mad
for all "He had let me go through". Why
me? I would ask myself. No matter how much I tried to do the things correctly:,
be nice to everyone or be proper, the feeling of being a loser in life did not
go away and it all started to wound my self esteem Every time someone said «Smile, Jesus Loves you» I felt like "yeah, right, I was going fine and He took it all away. How could you say
that’s love?" There was no way anybody could convince me of the opposite.
I had little people who
depended on me, though, and I got to thinking I was not setting a very good
example if I wanted them not to turn like me in the future, because one thinks
that bad things happen when one does not act correctly, but, you know what?
I started to read the Scriptures every day and asked God to give me the wisdom
He wanted me to have in order to carry on with a nice life. Not only did I
learn that God really loved me in spite of my behavior, and if I let Him, He
would become my father, my protector, my savior from any grief, for He would be
by my side at every moment to cry with me and give me courage to go on till His
plan in my life is fulfilled and I graduate with honors.
I am happy for it and
I have decided to start the year showing my teeth, smiling for all knowing that:
. . .God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God. . . (Romans8.28)
. . .we too all formerly lived in
the lust of our flesh indulging the desires of the flesh, and of the mind and
were by nature children of wrath. . .But God, being rich in mercy, because of
His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in our
transgressions, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been
saved) and raised us up with Him and seated us with Him in the heavenly places
in Christ Jesus so in the ages to come He might show the surpassing riches of
His grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. (E[hesians 2.3-7)